Gumby,
Part of the joy of living is trying to find answers.
Don't let anyone tell you they have found all the answers, and beleive it.
When we come out of a Cult that claims to have all the answers, and we find out they were lies, we feel like we need to find some one that has all the answer.
If we let that feeling guide us we will probably find ourselves in another cult.
Don't be afraid to question.
Don't be afraid to question authority, because authority to me is just another pressure to come under mind control.
Embrace your freedom, live it, question it, and come to your own conclusions.
And change your conclusions as often as you see the need.
If someone lived a trillion X longer than you, and had a billion X more reasoning ability would he come to the same conclusions as you?